Dear Future Husband.

Dear Future Husband,

Well, it's me again. Still completely unsure of who you are, where you are. To be honest, I thought God was being pretty obvious with you. Now, it's just me and God again. My prayers are not as intense as they are when heartbreak hits. I just fade away and become "okay" again.

By the way, my heart was broken again. Probably the deepest stab this time. But, as usual, I got through it. I think of you though. I think of you as even more beautiful than I thought before. I know exactly how I will love you and I don't expect you to be perfect. I'm writing this because you are going to be the one person in my life who will be allowed to know everything. You'll know my simple secrets as well as my deep and dark secrets.

I finally know how close we'll be able to be because I now understand what it's like to be in a relationship. I know for a fact that I will be the greatest person you'll get to know. Not because I'm being prideful right now, but because I know that's why you'll choose me. I will be that one person who stands by your side when no one else is. I will be that one person who sees your flaws and works with them. I will love you on your good days and your bad days.

I thought you were here. I thought we'd have a great story. But, I guess I was wrong. And therefore I am back to square one. Not knowing which pair of eyes I'll be staring into at the altar and not knowing which pair of arms will be holding me when I'm sad. But I still know you will be my favorite. And that you will be the best.

No matter who God made you to be. You'll be my husband for a special reason. And I won't have to find you.

I hope our paths cross over and over and over again.

Love,
Stephanie Ann

Hello, 2013.

The new year has arrived! 2012 is done, completed, and never to be seen.
I am utterly excited to begin a new year. It motivates me to be stronger, happier, and start things off fresh.
Who knows what it'll bring. But you'll find it all written at my new blog.
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Dear YOU

Dear You,

I've seen you before! Or at least it feels that way. It bothers me that I cannot figure out why. You must resemble someone, I just don't know who. Yet I think, "What does it matter?" Reality is you hardly know me. But in my mind it's like I've known for just about ever. But that's just my personality when I become drawn to someone. I have this ability to create instant best friends. I throw out all the effort in the world to start the friendship. Not just to anyone though. It's a select few that I instantly decide, "Yep. They're amazing."

I'm not entirely sure how you even exist, but knowing that you do has given me hope. As silly as this may seem, once upon a time I imagined someone quite like you. Over the years it seemed like I wouldn't actually know anyone like that. I even unknowingly was settling for less. I understand I only know a portion of you, but trust me, it's enough for me to believe. I wouldn't ever force a friendship upon you though. I'm not entirely sure what has gone on in your mind in return. But you reminded me of what I truly desire in a person.

I sincerely hope that someday, I can be with someone just like you.

Sincerely,
Me

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2012 is Ending.

The year is ending, and life is only getting better. But I feel like I've come to deserve an "uphill" season. I've fought long and hard for many things in life, and I know God doesn't intend for me to always feel that way. I know He wants great things for me as well. And that excites me. Because I feel like it's finally time for me to begin again. To finally reach a point where I can experience positive and happy things. That even though more trials may come later on, at least for now I can receive a reward for enduring all these years.

This entire blog has been filled with so many emotions, trials, and seasons in my life. It's pretty much everything it took to get to where I'm at and I finally feel like I'm leaving that huge chapter in my life. Because of how fresh I desire to feel when a new beginning begins, I will also carry along my excessive writing tendency onto a new blog. This blog will begin with a letter to the future, 365 days away. I will tell it what I imagine my life to be in 2013 and compare it to what really happened.

To add to my new blog for the new year, I will also be recording my life daily with video and uploaded to YouTube if anyone wants to come along with me in this new journey. I have an idea of what may happen next, but God is full of surprises. I'm not sure I should even bother to take guesses!

2013. You'll have LA trips, England trip, attempting to buy a car, move out, and find my true calling. Maybe you'll even include a special someone for the first time in my life. ♥