I don't know what I want.

Everyone should know by now that girls don't know what they want.

There's no point in trying to figure us out. It won't work.

You'll rarely know why we're crying. And we'll rarely tell you the exact reason.
Usually it's something like "I don't know."

The truth is... we can't explain it to you. We also can't be staright forward.

We talk in CODE.
Girl code, of course, and it's really simple to us, just hard on the GUYS.

I talk in code usually...without even realizing it. I also hate pain, loneliness, hate, lust, sadness, and anything associating with those things. Each one causes me to cry sometimes.

What does this have to do with what I want?

Well, I don't know what I want. I know what I don't want, but I don't know what I WANT.

I mean, sure, happiness would be nice. Friends would be nice too. I do have friends, in which I'm thankful.
That's all I ask for anyway.

Why can't having a friendship be easier?

I look for nothing more than this simple thing. I'm glad to know I'll be making it to 18 without ever going beyond a friendship!

I somewhat direct this to the ones who go straight to something more...

High School is dangerous for those people!

Anyway.. I just had to rant.

I'm gonna be leaving soon...