But at the current moment of my life, everything is completely weird, because most of it is unrevealed to me.
I ASSUME that this is just part of growing, and God must have great things WAITING to happen, but right now is my time to show Him that I follow Him, trust Him, and love Him. I do wish I could KNOW what it is He is planning, but not knowing is one of the main reasons why I even have the faith that I have, and the hope, and it's growing.
I mean, maybe He just thinks I'm NOT ready yet, even if I thought I was. Or maybe it's not me that's not exactly ready, but it's the person that is involved in these future plans that He is working with, whether I know them already, or not.
Sometimes I just want to RUN. To run to pretty much no where, get lost, and just lay there, putting everything at God's feet and leaving myself with absolutely nothing.
I'm DONE with this. I NEED and WANT changes.
